quiet despair

Pushed against the window pane

Maker — Thu, 16 Oct 2008 12:38:31 +0000

“Pushed against the window pane,
the nail goes right through me.

do it again, make sure that I’m bleeding.
I know that I’m bleeding, God knows i am bleeding.

pull me down the street then, by the neck.
must i die before you break me?

I believed he was right, I believed breathing was a right,
I must earn the patience, courtship, death; underfoot

you were the king of the hill and I’m the ladybug without wings.

no really its not always this way, we’re usually quite lovely.
Just give me twenty minutes, all I need is twenty minutes.
Just some time to get away; familiarity, sterility, normalcy, redundancy, for me.
next time you run, I run too.

Soothe me. No really, its lovely. Just hold me.
No more kicking, no more screaming, no more crying, no more yelling at me. “

Interfacing With Another Species 7.2 Ksecs Too Early

Maker — Mon, 29 Sep 2008 10:57:39 +0000

I’ve been scheduled for a conference call without my input on the time for more than 7Ksecs before I usually resume consciousness. In the past this has usually resulted in disaster for the other involved parties, as I typically can’t resume from standby that early, let alone speak in coherent sentences or form what humans would consider lucid thoughts. My ideal employer would either be able to work with this better, or be located in Japan.

This article on Code Climber identifies a lot of the most important reasons I and so many others work best at night. There are numerous benefits to working at night:

There are far less interruptions by email, instant message, and news via RSS
There is minimal interaction with human species, as they seem to prefer sleeping while Sol illuminates the oppopsite side of their planet
My best and most productive work requires long periods of concentration and Focus

No one speaks and no one tries

Maker — Tue, 16 Sep 2008 11:18:00 +0000

Strangers passing in the street By chance two separate glances meet And I am you and what I see is me And do I take you by the hand And lead you through the land And help me understand the best I can
Pink Floyd (formed 1965 in Cambridge, United Kingdom) is a British band noted for psychedelic rock and progressive rock music, philosophical lyrics, avant-garde compositions, sonic experimentation, innovative cover art and elaborate live shows. One of rock music’s most successful and influential acts, the group have sold an estimated 73.5 million albums in the U.S., and over 300 million albums worldwide.

We’ve just lost one of the founding members of the most influential bands of all time. Today Richard Wright passed away at age 65 of cancer.

Maker — Sun, 07 Sep 2008 12:59:07 +0000

5000 points to anyone who knows the rest of it without googling it.

I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.

If you cheat, I’ll know. Think about this dishonor you’ll bring your family.