quiet despair » unstable

Pushed against the window pane

Maker — Thu, 16 Oct 2008 12:38:31 +0000

“Pushed against the window pane,
the nail goes right through me.

do it again, make sure that I’m bleeding.
I know that I’m bleeding, God knows i am bleeding.

pull me down the street then, by the neck.
must i die before you break me?

I believed he was right, I believed breathing was a right,
I must earn the patience, courtship, death; underfoot

you were the king of the hill and I’m the ladybug without wings.

no really its not always this way, we’re usually quite lovely.
Just give me twenty minutes, all I need is twenty minutes.
Just some time to get away; familiarity, sterility, normalcy, redundancy, for me.
next time you run, I run too.

Soothe me. No really, its lovely. Just hold me.
No more kicking, no more screaming, no more crying, no more yelling at me. “

Maker — Sun, 07 Sep 2008 12:59:07 +0000

5000 points to anyone who knows the rest of it without googling it.

I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.

If you cheat, I’ll know. Think about this dishonor you’ll bring your family.

Lies from central Florida!

Maker — Fri, 08 Dec 2006 19:33:34 +0000

The University of Central Florida has made up the following lie, in an attempt to prove we’ll never land on the moon again: 3-D Digital Storage System Could Hold a Library on One DVD. Belfield’s team claims they figured out a way to use lasers to compact large amounts of information onto a DVD while maintaining “excellent” quality. The information is stored permanently without the possibility of damage, they assert.

I have yet to review their research and until such time, I’m assuming it’s a lie. The same goes for all other research in every field. It’s all lies.

A small update

Maker — Fri, 08 Dec 2006 19:12:02 +0000

I haven’t posted in a while, so here’s what you’ve missed. Skydiving was great, some websites broke and I fixed them. Some hardware failed, and got fixed. In other words, I’ve been busy. Tonight I have a company formal event to attend, and then its off for skiing Saturday and Sunday. There will be no snow and the temperature is about 80F, though they lie and claim 51F, it isn’t much help.